forever till forever meets no end

Monday, February 05, 2007 @9:38 PM

turning away and keeping quiet was all i could do to stop myself from crying when i saw her cry. i was seriously on the verge of tears the whole of training and seeing her breakdown was the last of it. when hazel said bye to me after training and asked me if everything was ok i could only nod and mumble i guess.

actually everything is NOT ok. it is anything but ok. i really don't understand why things have to turn out the way they are. cheerleading, gym etc. it just isn't fair. she deserves to compete thats all i can say. everyone thinks so.

and while hazel, limei mel and cailyn were comforting us. cailyn the dear girl who can never be sad bounced around happily trying to make both of us laugh -.- honestly she is so cute and she was exceptionally high because her father just called her saying he could fetch her home and she didn't have to take oublic bus. then when hazel and mel were hugging both of us, cailyn bounced in and went "i want a hug too!!! give me a hug too! and of course we gave her a hug" honestly i think cailyn kind of brightened up that gloomy part of my day and i love her loads :) cailyn is such a dear.

and melinda too :)) for talking to me on the phone giving me her professional advice i think she can really go be a psycologist :)) thanks melinda!

i really really don't get why things are turning out the way they are. i hate it. nothing is helping.

and i really really need you to be here now :(